I had hoped that when we ventured outside that we would be two people pressed together inside a giant suit of armor. And in the absurd, painful, and beautiful imagery of Don Quixote, there would be a large knight in shining armor clanking through the urban streets of Denver ( Read more... )

I am so through with Colorado weather - so through with winds and schizophrenic cold-to-warm and hot-to-freezing variations. Is there not a place in this world that would house my body perfectly with its climate and culture? Where is my utopia? I'd settle for dystopia as long as you were there with me and the air would be warm without overwhelming ( Read more... )

I find it's never good to fall ill and have a full day of reflections rain down upon you like nobody's business. That mixture of the past renewing itself and becoming something different and that feeling of estrangement. I am haunted by her image - I can't tell if it's generic or beautiful. In porn clips, in film, in my dreams. All there serving as ( Read more... )

When you visited you left ghosts in your wake. Not after you left. When you were still here. The café I always went, where I got hugs and food and laughs and named - I took you there in hopes that you would see how loved I was here, without you - and also to share that love with you. I wanted everyone to meet you. You always make me so proud beside ( Read more... )

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Nice to lose the boundaries of your skin and sink into scent like that - feel all that warmth and humidity underneath your arms, between your legs, a nose in the neck of a swan full of stories and little chemicals untouched by test tubes and factories saying hello ( Read more... )

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Lately he's been homesick, I think, though not overtly. For the first time in his life, his health results came back poorly. Possible skin cancer (biopsy tomorrow) and high cholesterol (possibly from dehydration). He's vulnerable and all his self-deceptions are catching up with him. Yes. I always knew why you kept your old driver's license photo. ( Read more... )

The heart would like something more frivolous and carefree.

Thank you for your attention to this matter.

-Management